Renewed Focus

It's no secret to anyone that I've been frustrated lately.  I've been frustrated by injury and feeling like I'm getting nowhere.  I've been in a slump and regardless of what my husband would say to me, I've felt overwhelmed.

Honestly, my injury has been a blessing in a few ways, although it's completely frustrating being in pain and not being able to do the things that I've grown to love, it's allowed me time to step back and look at what I've done and time to get caught up on things that needed to be done.

Today I got some words of encouragement from someone other than my husband and other than one of the other great ladies at JDFT or Momstown.  It was a simple message left on my facebook wall, just saying how proud they were of me.  This afternoon that message was followed up by a phone call, one that was really what I needed right now.  Just a few small words, "I don't want you to quit what you're doing, not just with your weight loss but with everything.  I don't want you to quit.  I'm so very proud of you, more than you can ever know." and with those words, I'm re-focused, ready to give even more than I have before.

I was starting to get too comfortable nursing my injury and I could have easily given myself the okay to just sit this weekend's run out, but it's NOT okay.  I took some time to look at everything I've done, all that I can do now that I couldn't before.  Who gives a shit if I haven't lost a ton of weight yet, I can do pushups full on now.  I can run a kilometer without stopping or puking.  I have clothes that are too big now and I don't cringe completely when I look in the mirror.  I wouldn't have come this far if I had talked myself out of taking those first steps into JDFT in December or if I had given up after spending months being sick, so why the hell would I quit now?  This month, I'm not doing it for weight or inch loss, I'm doing it to show myself how much MORE I can do after another month and that starts with sucking it up and doing my first 5km run/walk on Saturday.  I'm mostly going to be walking, but I'll be walking in that red JDFT-WTF t-shirt with my head held high knowing that the thought would never have even crossed my mind 5 months ago to walk a 5km, let alone consider entering one.  How much more can I do after another month?  2 months?  6 months?  I don't know but I'm sure as hell GOING to find out!

A limit on what you will do, puts a limit on what you can do.- Anonymous